Tuesday, June 14, 2005
You're the first kiss!
Which Summer and Seth kiss are you? (The O.C.)
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when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
12:21 AM Monday, June 13, 2005
I need a sign to let me know you're here
All of these lines are being crossed over the atmosphere
I need to know that things are gonna look up
Cause I feel us drowning in a sea spilled from a cup
When there is no place safe and no safe place to put my head
When you can feel the world shake from the words that I said
And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels
And I won't give up if you don't give up
I won't give up if you don't give up
I won't give up if you don't give up
I won't give up if you don't give up
I need a sign to let me know you're here
Cause my tv set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me
And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels
When children have to play inside so they don't disappear
While private eyes solve marriage lies cause we dont talk for years
And football teams are kissing queens and losing sight of having dreams
In a world where all we want is only what we want until it's ours
And I'm calling all angels
And I'm calling all you angels
And I'm calling all angels
(I won't give up if you don't give up)
And I'm calling all you angels
(I won't give up if you don't give up)
Calling all you angels
(I won't give up if you don't give up)
Calling all you angels
(I won't give up if you don't give up)
Calling all you angels
IT'S OFFICIAL Y'ALL! I'M NOW PHONELESS!:(
i wrote a really long entry but there was an error or something and the whole entry got deleted or something. hmm... too bad i guess. i hate our pc!
survey time!
1. Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
Nope.
2. Have you ever eaten pork?
Nah... I'm a vegetarian. Haha! Kidding!
3. Have you ever vomited in a vehicle?
Yup!
4. Have you ever beaten up a friend?
Why would i beat up my friend?
5. Have you ever slapped ur partner?
Partner? Like lab partner? Hell no! I'm a peaceful person
6. Have you ever smoked?
Nope. I don't wanna die cause of lung cancer. :)
7. Have you ever been so drunk?
Hmm... I'm sorry... What?
8. Have you ever ridden an elephant?
Nope. But i wanna ride an elephant! Ooh! Dumbo!
9. Have you ever felt as if u are gonna die?
Nope
10. Have you ever hugged ur crush?
I hug a lot of people
11. Have you ever played with fire?
Nope. I don't want to be a human torch
12. Have you ever cried for the one u love?
Uhh... Say what?
13. Does he or she know about it?
I don't think the person needs to know about it. Haha!
14. Have you ever fallen from a bicycle?
I don't know how to ride a bike! Get off my case!
15. Will u die for the one u love?
Die?Hmm... I'll think about it
16. Have you ever missed someone so badly?
Hmm...define badly
18. Have you ever gotten stones thrown at u?
I don't think people still do that
19. Have you ever been unfaithful?
Hmm... I don't think so
20. Have you ever gotten pepper in ur eyes?
Na-uh
21. Have you ever gotten a surprise present?
Yup
22. Have you ever been on a diet?
Eww! NO!
23. Have you ever stripped someone naked?
Uhh.. Yeah. Haha! Kidding!:P
24. Have you ever taken a picture of urself?
Yeah i think. Vanity is definitely my favorite sin. :)
25. Have you ever club till dawn?
Hmm... Haha! Thats a weird question!
26. Have you ever been in a lift with someone who has body odour?
Uhh... Maybe
27. Have you ever been so angry u felt like killing the person?
Hmm... Hell yeah! I wanted 'em to die a painful death!:)
29. Have you ever broken up due to the existence of a third party?
Umm... Nope?
30. Have you ever wanted to commit suicide?
Wanted? Hmm... Yeah i guess
31. Have you ever challenged ur teacher?
Nope. I'm a nice student. Haha!
32. Have you ever lost ur handyphone?
Yeah-yeah. I'm phoneless! Don't rub it in dude!
33. Have you ever lost in gambling?
i don't gamble :)
34. Have you ever been told that u are cute?
Eww!
35. Have you ever had a crush?
Uh-huh! Seth Cohen man!
36. Have you ever confessed ur feelings?
To?I think this question's incomplete
37. Have you ever gotten urself into trouble?
Yeah. Once or twice :)
38. Have you ever lied to ur parents?
Yup. Who hasn't?
39. Have you ever been robbed?
Nope
40. Do you really like a guy/girl a lot now?
Umm... wow. last question.
ciao bella!
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
4:00 PM Sunday, June 12, 2005
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why i need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is You
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
hmm... i don't exactly know what to write about. i haven't really updated much. i just kept on pasting lyrics of songs and stuff. ooh! i got vanilla frap and bavarian doughnut today. someone loves me! yay! i was temporarily happy. i shall think of a nickname for roselle so i can claim my vanilla frap! venti please!:)
oh yeah! school's gonna start on wednesday. we'll be welcoming the new blue batch. so i guess i'd probably see charisma and my other ex-busmates more often now. i hope this year'll be as fun as last year. last year was a blast! i was given the chance to be in a section with the best people! i got to form ties with a nice ballerina, a rocker drummer girl, the best actress/singer and a nice and courteous girl who i sat next to during the sayawatha-hardcourt concert. i got to rekindle relationships with past classmates too like the artistic rocker chick that sat next to me for 1 whole quarter, my hardworking nursery classmate who has so much talent and discipline, the gorgeous smart super model super sweet girl who keeps on throwing erasers at me, the exceptionally funny and witty girl and my then newly inaugurated cheerleader confidant. haha! i love 2-4! twas the best year ever!:)
my tummy hurts. i don't know why. i'm hungry. i want ice cream. strawberry and chocolate ice cream together! yum! ooh! vanilla!
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
1:00 AM Friday, June 10, 2005
i wanna be the girl you call baby... the girl you call you own... the girl you hold in your arms...and fall asleep with on the phone... the girl who makes your bad days better...and the girl that will make you say my life has changed since i met her.
i got that from rae's blog. its nice
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
10:51 PM
Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why
But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for
Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
10:31 PM Tuesday, June 07, 2005 dearest boy, my Adam, Love, mom. so... who'll be my joy? I'm sorry for being kind of rude to everyone who attempted to talk to me. Let me deal with it in my own time. I appreciate your attempt to help but, I'd really just rather handle it on my own. If I needed you then, I'd ask for your help. Please stop reminding me of what I have to do. I know what they are. It's just that I'm still figuring some stuff out so I can't really give you guys a definite answer. Stop asking me questions... just let me come to you when I'm ready to talk. I don't want to be rude to you guys but sometimes, there are just some stuff that I have to keep to myself. I respect your privacy... so why won't you respect mine? I'm sorry if I'm not as open to talk as other people. I was just kind of raised that way. I believe that they're my problems and I should be the only person to solve them. When and if I need help, I'll ask. Believe it or not, I am very much confused and your questions and attempts to make me realize how good I have it don't really work. I'm tired of thinking. I'm tired of everything. Give me time. Stop giving me the 3rd degree. I'm just tired. I'm too tired. :)
I dreamed a dream, you and I facing each other in a tiny yellow boat on green water under blue sky. Me and my son and the yellow boat. And we laugh and the boat rocks and the ripples spread from boat, to pond, to sea,the sky, and nothing can stop them, nothing ever will. When you think of me, Adam, know that in a world of pain... you were and always will be my joy.
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
10:17 PM Sunday, June 05, 2005
guess who's bizack biatch! did you miss me? haha! ;)
okay. so i'm officially without a doubt royally pissed. i'm pissed at everything and almost everyone. thank god i'm goin back to school next week! i don't want to spend another second in this house. so if there's a party, happening, social call, formal event or even if you just wanna hang, you know my digits. call me and i'll be there. :p i'm excited to watch danica's ballet thing na.
miss ya! wanna kiss ya! so pucker up!
ciao bella!Wish I could be the one
The one who could give you love
The kind of love you really need
Wish I could say to you
That I'll always stay with you
But baby that's not me
You need someone willing to give their heart and soul to you
Promise you forever, baby that's something I can't do
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a lie
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
I hope someday you can
Find some way to understand I'm only doing this for you
I don't really wanna go
But deep in my heart I know this is the kindest thing to do
You'll find someone who'll be the one that I could never be
Who'll give you something better
Than the love you'll find with me
Oh I could say that I'll be all you need
But that would be a crime
I know I'd only hurt you
I know I'd only make you cry
I'm not the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Leaving someone when you love someone
Is the hardest thing to do
When you love someone as much as I love you
Oh I don't wanna leave you
Baby it tears me up inside
But I'll never be the one you're needing
I love you, goodbye
Baby, its never ganna work out
I love you, goodbye
