Saturday, February 25, 2006
it's sad when you show people who you really are andthey're not satisfied with what they see so they try to change you
i'm making a new layout. this one's too crappy. it's so dull... i hate it.
the oral defense thing started na. i haven't done anything. i'm too tamad to move. maureen was great kanina. :) i hate bea isabel dela rosa oliveros. she's such a god. what she did shouldn't be called an oral defense... they should call it a powerpoint presentation! :)) i love you bea
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
7:00 AM Saturday, February 18, 2006
morning:
this day is the lamest day ever... i've done nothing extremely exciting. i was supposed to go to the whole breakfast meeting thing but i woke up late so i kinda didn't want to go anymore cos i needed to go somewhere by 9:30. then i found out that erika wasn't coming cos she was grounded and monnie wasn't replying. that really made me not want to go. diane called and she sounded like she wasn't in the mood to go either so we just decided to ditch the breakfast thing.
afternoon:
i just watched 2 seasons of scrubs the whole afternoon. i swear, the writers of that show are geniuses... in between seasons, i went online and talked to a bunch of people.
evening:
while waiting for my brother to get here and bring us to the resort place for sister dear's byebye bash, i finished season 4 of scrubs then went online. that show really makes people think... i love it.
karen : unrequited love is the worst
erika : what?
karen : i mean it hurts when you love someone and that someone doesn't love you
erika : of course it hurts....
karen : yes it does...
i'm in love with the thought of being in love...
how insane is that? i mean, how could i be? i'm not even sure if i've ever been in love. :)
a long long time ago, i had this theory about people our age and love. i said that it was impossible for us to actually be in love because we were too young for that... i realize now that love is unpredictable... its one of those magnificent things that you just can't control. sometimes, it might drive you crazy to the point of wanting to kill yourself but when you come to think about it, it's also what drives you... it makes you do things... strange things that you never even thought you'd do... without love, this life wouldn't be worth living. okay so maybe the whole holding hands, kissykissy, flower and chocolate giving process makes me wanna puke but it would be nice to have someone who'd stick it out with you no matter what... someone who'd make you feel special... who'd accept you for who you are... and most importantly, someone who'd love you despite all your imperfections. :)
hearts don't have to shatter... they just have to stop feeling.
god... i should've weathered the storm. unrequited love is the worst..
my sister's finally leaving on tuesday. i never really thought that it would push through since her trip has been rescheduled lots of times already... it's gonna be weird not having her around anymore... :(
when you grow up, will you be the saviour of the broken, the beaten and the damned?
9:38 AM Thursday, February 09, 2006 diane wrote that on my arm... i think it rocks
i'm hopped up on coke again... i'm lovin it...
i'm gonna be a down with love girl just like erika... oh! i might not go to the prom... :)) i don't think anyone really gets why i don't wanna go. i don't even fully understand why i don't want to go. its like prom is an important event. its kind of a right of passage... right? but i don't get any of it. sure it would be fun to dress up and have the CHANCE(not sayin that i would look awesome... believe me, i know thats not humanly possible) to look incredibly awesome but... i dunno... its like suddenly, prom didn't have a purpose. its just another social event. prom isn't just supposed to be a social event... its supposed to be THE social event. no one really gets excited about the grad ball or some freakass sophomore's night... prom's supposed to be the mother of all social events. :)) but its like i'm not even just a little bit excited about it... this is all the o.c.'s fault... i wouldn't have remembered anything if i didn't watch their prom episode. seth and summer are so good together. :) it's strange... i didn't know that it was possible to be cynical and a hopeless romantic at the same time... god... i almost believed that love didn't exist anymore. good thing i watched scrubs... it exists people! i shall never doubt its existence ever again. slap me if i ever do. :))
the teacher's day thing was fun. i swear, christian bautista has a really nice voice. i have a picture of him in my phone! *dies* 
too bad i'm not exactly the person he's standing next to... 'tis fine though... i mean, at least my phone was used to capture his greatness... plus, does he just looks so compatible with sarah? i mean, hotness + hotness is the perfect equation for couples.
after the whole christian thing, we(actually, just me... i think i'm totally gonna be a photographer when i grow up...) took a lot of pictures. everything was totally perfect until ms. delfin ruined our little party... she took ella's mojo... well... not exactly... she actually took their id's. after that everything was starting to be all boring again. we watched the program thingy until we were already allowed to leave the sports com... oops! my bad... the high school covered court...
